Dec. 1, 2020 – A Special Update

It’s been a long time since I’ve been able to update this blog. But I’ve come back bearing great news. I’m unsure of where to start; there’s been a lot of change for me, and I’m finally starting to feel like I’m where I should be with things.

I can’t get into the specifics, but for nine months (Feb-Oct this year) I’ve been living in a very abusive situation wherein I couldn’t do much to get out, was enduring horrid mental turmoil, was being extorted for money, and wanted to take my own life. I tried resolving things several different times, in different ways, on different terms each time–nothing was ever good enough. Even when I explained my suicidal thoughts, I was met with laughter and told to “try it out.” I would never wish any of this onto anyone. Eventually this all caused me to go into a “fuck everything” attitude and call out their physical threats. This ended with me having to call the police to ensure safe passage out of my house.

It was horrifying and traumatic, but I escaped and they can’t hurt me anymore. I stayed with a friend for a week afterward, and after staying there for seven days, I was moved into a nice two bedroom apartment. It’s really nice. Having a room to dedicate to being an office is nice too. Furniture shopping at IKEA and Target was hell, but I snagged some decent furniture for the new place. Ordered some snazzy lights from Amazon too on a sweet Cyber Monday deal. Listen to me, I sound like a mindless consumer. 16 year old me is raging.

The bar has been good work, but COVID19 regulations are ruining business. It’s a huge drag and I can’t wait for the pandemic to finally be under control. I don’t particularly like writing about politics, but I have good faith that the incoming new administration will be wildly more efficient than the current tape-and-rubber-glue scenario we have going on until January 21. Couldn’t help but feel that Christmas came early this year.

This year was the first year that I did not celebrate Thanksgiving in any way. I literally sat at home all day, made a huge steak for dinner, played video games, and slept. It was awesome.

Speaking of video games, I’ve completed a lot since my last post:
Starbound
Hotline Miami
Disgaea 5
Legend of Zelda: Link’s Awakening (Switch remake)
Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild
Grand Theft Auto 5
Death Stranding (Again)
Kingdom Hearts 1 & 2
God of War (PS4)

Finally a #gamer

I still have a lot of games that I want to complete, and I just got the Bloodborne DLC on a sale. It’s a good feeling to know that even in the midst of this pandemic, I’ll have (hopefully) enough video games to last it out. Don’t get me wrong though, I really miss being social and going places. We really took that for granted, huh?

There’s still so much more to say, but this is a good place to leave things. I have plans for many more writing projects that I need to get off the ground floor. Lots of plans for this site too. And I finally have a reliable connection, office, and stable mentality to do it all. It feels good to finally feel good. More to come.

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